It's funny how the second you look at that pregnancy test and see two lines, your motherly instincts kick in and all of the sudden you worry about your (unborn) child for any or no reason at all- all the time. The night before my ultrasound I told James that I was worried because I hadn't felt the baby move all day. So we googled ways to get your baby to move, and, after drinking cold water, juice, eating sugar, laying on my side, and poking around at her to try and get her to wake up, she just wasn't moving. Of course my mind jumps to the worst conclusions. I don't think I slept very well that night. The day of my ultrasound we had to wait until 1:00 to see her, which seemed like the longest morning ever.
When the ultrasound tech put the probe on my belly, searching for baby's heartbeat, my heart sank a little. Right then baby started wiggling, and we found her healthy heart beating away. I had never felt so relieved in my entire life, knowing that my child was okay. That she was alive and well. Hearing her little heart beating was the greatest comfort to me. And that's when I realized that I am a mother. And I will be a mother for the rest of my life. I have so much to do to be ready for this baby. And sometimes I feel inadequate to be her mom and to give her everything she deserves in this life. But I'm so thankful that Heavenly Father has sent her to me. I already feel like she is my biggest blessing, and I have yet to meet her.
Everything on the scan looked perfect.
2 arms. 2 legs.
2 hands. 2 feet.
10 fingers. 10 toes.
heart rate 144 bpm
and measuring right on time.
June come faster!
How Far Along? 20 weeks.
Size Of Baby? Baby is the size of a banana- 10 inches from head to toe. She's getting so tall!
Weight Gain? Just 9 lbs. so far! Except it feels like I've gained 100.
Symptoms? Headaches. And i'm so worried about baby that I will not take ANYTHING for it. Not even if the doctor says it's okay. So I just suffer through it.
Maternity Clothes? It's all I wear. My sweet friend Mollie was so kind and gave me some of her old maternity clothes, and my sweet grandma bought me some as well. So thank you for that or i'd probably still be trying to squish into my regular clothes.
Sleep? I've been sleeping better through the night but my dreams... are so weird.
Best Moment This Week? My 20 week anatomy scan! Baby has all 10 fingers and toes and is measuring right at her due date.
Weird Pregnancy Moment? Crying. About everything.
Movement? YES. When I lay, sit, stand, I feel her so much! Such an active little thing.
Food Cravings? Mexican food.
Aversions? Thankfully no.
Gender? The radiologist confirmed she's a girl. So i'm going with girl.
What I'm looking Forward To: Giving this sweet baby girl a name! And for time to quickly move along so I can meet her.
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